*COLOUR-FLYING RESULTS
< *Get married to HyunJoong or JaeJoong?8D
*Become a wonderful watercolour painter
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*Forever eat food that is cooked by my dad~ <3
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Oh, so, we went to someone's birthday party at jusco yesterday. I wouldn't say it's all fun, but it ain't all boring either. I think I had fun - in the beginning. ==

I was suffering due -sudden-disease + bloody shit month's goodfriend. It sucks loads to see people screaming when I'm in such a bad bad bad mood due to... *ehem*.... But I'm still glad they had fun, well. ==?? I don't even know what I'm talking now.

Okay. Flashbacks.

Khai's mom needs to work so she sent us off earlier at around 9.30am. While we waited for the others, Ying and her bro plus Khai plus me sat in Hongkie Kopitiam talking random stuffs I don't really remember now. Too random. But I remember something about Potong Saga and the red Proton Wira passing by with tons of punks jumping out from the damned car. 

Then we entered Jusco(it's finally OPENED!), and I expect that birthday boy's message about the ticket. But too bad our mission failed since we're bored to hunger and Jusco just went alive. So it's not our fault. XD... And we satrted chewing into our MacDonalds. And then I saw two people popping from the side of the shop and I thought I saw Yue Hao which was a nightmare, but then I adjusted myself and looked again - Hey it's just da birthday boy WuiSoh Yung. Phew. I guessed I need to have my eyes check. ==... Omg. 

So they went on to the cinema later and we met up with the others and I finally saw my babies - Jelly and Wriggly. Well, for your info, I made a jelly fish key chain for her the night before so I handed her and guess what's her expression. It's classic - and I'm not sharing it with you - IT'S MY TREASURED MEMORY. 8D Okies, so later we were on the plan to buy WSYung's birthday present. We weren't amazed by anything in Jusco at first but decided on the 2 shirts for RM 50 in Gio(what's the name again?) something. ==? 

We were on dilemma between shirts and we paid off giving up on making our heads big. But we changed the present into something later, but it's a secret so I can't tell you about it. So then, it's card-hunting time. And we went to Popular to shop for cards. We weren't deciding much on the cards, but Genius Wriggly picked a card with a title 'What more can you wish for your birthday?', indicating "The present we gave him is more than he wanted, isn't it? This card is just peeeeeeeerfecto! (the present, it's really something)" And we purchased it right away. So for everone's share (Total = 50[shirts] + 3.50 [card] : 53.50) it's 9.50. ==... Hmm. 

So when you bought the card you write something on it right? XD....But those bastards who were rambling about correction tapes won't come over and finish off the card-work. ==... Thanks to a second warning they came staright away.  And this is what everyone wrote. XD~ Ahhhhh~ I should have taken a photo of the card!!! >

Me: Happy birthday! Good luck in courting *beep*.

JP: Happy Birthday! Muaaaacks~ <3>

Shirley : (You know what? She just.... T_T.... SHE JUST WROTE HER NAME!) Shirley

QY: Happy Birthday! I don't know pig also will birthday one wor~ But I wish for the best of you to not get sent off to the butcher so soon! XD (That's one hell of a greeting.........)

The others just wrote Happy Birthday so it's nothing special. =="

And we added a side note on it regarding his birthday present. XD But I won't tell you that. XD

Now, it's cinema time! As we tricked WSYung into something else and camouflaging the truth of everyone's writing a birthday wish on the card we bought earlier. It was totally a risk as thet WSYung jusy kept walking around with his pop corn and we need QY's super large sized body to block the people writing messages. XD.... Aahaha~

So we entered the cinema - And it's G.I Joe. ==

Let me tell you a bit of the movie. About Duke, and his pal, Rip, being sent off delivering a bomb made of nano-tech. It was mainly about a man wanting power with the bomb he made. And something something. I would say it's a good show of action movie and a little sense of humour. But, it was full of DESTROYING EARTH. ==.... Man, think of it, I'm so worried the terrorists will 'mok' on the movie and start mimicking what they did in the movie such as crushing down Paris tower with the nano-tech bomb, T_T.... Man, it was a horrible sight. And they crushed into people's office and people's cars will I doubt the people who owned those cars would cry their heart out. ==.... And they kept on firing bombs which releases CFC. So, let's say the conclusion is mainly about : Destructing World's Peace, ;D

And when we're done we went into the Karaoke room straight away. And there people became so excited they shouted to each other as if they couldn't talk properly without scremaing. ==... I nearly went deaf - but I already was anyway. It was still fun and then everyone starting singing songs and shouting to the speakers which to me, Wriggly and Jelly were suffering because we're sitting right next to the speaking. Our ear drums were blasted off into pieces that very day. *mourning over my ear drums* And we had a few sexual MV-s which the boys went SUPERB high. == 

When we were sining to MJ's song, Jia Jin began dancing to his moves and we laughed our eyes and tongue and butts off. He's seriously all-to-himself-and-me-baby-phone thing when we started going crazy at first but he was mainly ALL-TOO-HIGH-AND-CRAZY eventually. Ahhhh, we should have taken photos abouth him dancing. But I managed to take a photo of JP giving me a 'V' pose but her fingers looked as if they are stucked in her nose for some reason in the photo. AHAHAHAHAHA!!! I can't post it here or she'll kill me. XDDDDDDDD 

Anyway, in the end it was a ruckus. And too bad I wasn't in all my best mode since I'm feeling very unwell. Thanks to the *beeep*. ==.... Fine.

But still, I think it was fun. And we went home after going through a confusion in paying the money to the Karaoke staffs. While the ride home was a suffer for me since it's raining and I'm seriously feeling hight headed as though I might collapsed very soon. 

But anyway, after resting I guessed it made a big difference. That's all! XD

I'm tired from all the typing and all. See ya!

I'm going to go random. 

*screams in delight* VK 53 IS OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUT~ MY MY, HOW LONG HAVE I WAITED FOR HINO MATRURI SENSEII'S WORK!!! Bullshit, it's getting better and better - her drawing. And the story. T_T.... Why do you always give me a fugging cligg hanger. Make me sam si si ah ah ah ah~

Anyway, HOOORAY !!! I received one comment for my drawings in Deviant!!!

I'm sooooooooooo happy!!! At least someone likes it, I thought it really holds nothing for people to like it. T_T.... And there are 35 downloads for my cutestyle DongBang! Thank you so much for your supports!!!

And while watching Shugo Chara, I figured out something. I havent's been updating my fictions and that's.... T_T.... No Good!!! I can't let it stay like this!!! I need to quickly finish up SC and so I can start with my fiction writing work. But anime are such drugs to anime-addicts like me. ==///

I wonder when I'll stop going crazy when Ikuto transforms into Death Rebel~ Crap why is he just so so so so hot~

And Wriggly called me just now, something about our gang. This year does suck loads in some ways, but it's eventful. o^o.... Though not in the way. Uhm, it's hard to say but we're losing a lot of people around us this year. My family, my friends, my gang members. T_T.... We're even thinking of getting new gang members - but where to? Maybe sticking up a notice would work anyway? And I forgot to ask her is it only 'LIMITED FOR GIRLS' or it's an 'OPEN TO ALL' membership. -^- Ara ara. Sigh.

Anyway, don't worry too much, baby, 'kay? We'll figure things out like they should be. Don't fret so much about it, anyway, it's nice to have someone around when things go wild, isnt it? : ) I'm glad I helped a little with toning you down, but still the great service goes to your lovely husband - doesnt it? He's the true JP-Saver. XD Whoopsie, your own specialised Ultra*hanger*Man~ <333>

Anway, we had a few stuck times talking about the problem over the line - then things come out... Quite odd. XD.... Ahaha, but at least the call ended with laughter. That's great. Better than sobbing and shouting the heavenly F word isnt it? XD

:-* This is my lucky kiss for you~ Ahaha~ 

ANyway, HAPPY HOLIDAY~

==......... This post is super random. 

Ah ah, I've been using SunSilk for 2 years in a roll. ==... I think my hair is getting browner and it's turning gold if I stand under the sun, and the glitters arent coming back. They're like dry grass. o^o *sobs*

So I asked mom to buy me a new shampoo. Another product, of course. Since my sunsilk is finishing any way. She bought me Pantene. Well, I thought of Dove at first, since it's the first product I used when I was young. And my hair turned out pretty well that time. Right before I changed it to SunSilk. But, if you're asking for total cleaning, use Sunsilk, for anti dandruffs - Heads&Shoulderzzz, Uhm, black and soft hair - Dove, and a wonderful perfrumed-aroma plus soft hair, then Pantene. 

That's my report after using them. == But comes with better result if used with conditioner. Yep. So now, about Pantene, I think I like it. Well, of course I hate it at first since I can't make out any bubbles from it. But I found the secret to REMAKING BUBBLES with Pantene. And it's ------- Bath your hair in the shower while rubbing the shampoo together. There goes the bubbles. It only comes with a loooot of water and not a little. So I think my water bills this month would be EXTREMELY expensive. Okay.

Anyway, mom says it's fine for the reward in return for the Straight A's I've obtained in trial. :3.... I think it's fine if we can't get a white dress for the Farewell, I'll go with baby blue, or maybe satin pink. Those colours are fine with me I guess. Some times soft apple green dresses are pretty too. Well, I don't know, but I'm going to look forward for the day when I go out to shop them! :3

I just hope I have the chance to wear them. :3.... And I'm going to grow my hair loooooooooooooooong~ So maybe next time it's easier for hair-do. And  I've got lots of styles to try. Wakakaka~ And it's easy - only with a comb and black hair band. Of course, If you ask for something more, You can do it with specialised hair-do clips or so. No idea. I'm not much of a hair-do craze any way. 

Ahhhhh~ I'm so going to have it loooong~~~ Try something new next year maybe!!! And I'm going to have to wear my contact lenses. ; ^ ; 

If I continue to abandon them, they'll go expiring in no time. T^T

And dad will have my head down for his seat. Sob*

Watching : Shugo Chara

Missing    : Blood + (A little memory)

Listening to : Stupid Brother's piano playing ==

:X

What should I tell you? School sucks, and a hit and run happened just right before the eyes of many two days ago. And guess what the poor, shameful and no balls effing hitter just escaped right after he hit his victim. WHAT A SHAME, YOU BASTARD! I CURSE YOU TO GET HIT BY AN INDAH WATER TANK SOME DAY!!! ARGH! ="=

Gee, I say, people! Get a life for the hit and runs! ==.... What a shame, why don't you just stand out and apologise for what you did damn bastard. If you killed her, you'll be guilty forever! And now, when you saw the victim, I swear I swear you'll FEEL MORE GUILTY for running away like that. HUH!

Whatever. Back to school. (- -  ll)

Oh yeah, we made.... Omg, I hate to say it. SARDINE GULUNGS for our ERT. It sucks so much. OMG, THAT TASTE!!! I WILL NEVER FORGET IT!!! AND IT LOOKED SO EADIBLE - BEFORE WE PUT IT INTO OUR MOUTHS. IMAGINE THIS.

OMG, it looks soooo good >>>> Aaaaooooom *eats* >>>>> face goes green>>>>>> face go white >>>>>>> Yucks. 

Guesss what, It tastes like shit. ==...

ANyway, for some reason - i mean jams spilling out from the inside of the biscuit, the whole tray was of larvas. And guess what, ladies and gentlemen!!!! My biscuit was itself BAKED and BATHED in the JAM LARVA. 

T_T.... Omg, but lucky did we have the larva so at least it tastes sweet other tsating like PURE SHIT. == .... I hate to say this but, OMG, OUR COOKING WAS SOOOO BAD AND THAT BISCUTE MAKING THING WAS A FAILURE!!!! Don't get me on baking normal biscuits anymore, I prefer baking cookies with chocolate chips and cakes - which I remembered it was so good when we did that months ago. T_T.... I missed 'em.

And that lazy bumbum JiBai, ==... Swings her butt here and there, kiss here kiss there doing nothing, such a lazy pig. Hey, you, go back home, get some sleep, sleep sleep sleep, wake up, eat, sleep again and sleep and sleep. Okay? I think that life style suits you best~ ;D... Don't you think it's a good idea? It's your dream life, isnt it? XD

Never mind that, I HAVE GREAT NEWS TO SHARE WITH YOU AFTER A LONG TIME OF STRUGGLING WITH THE SHITS OF BISCUITS AND HIT AND RUNS AND LAZY BUMSSSSS!!!!

I'VE GOT STRAIGHT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S IN MY PRAAAA!!

; - ;

I knot it means nothing cuz' it's just trial. But, but, I  get to have my reward. I wonder if mom would let me. XDDD.... OMG!!!!

Here's my stupid freaking crazy result I'm going to share with you!!!

Chinese : 86

Malay    :85

English : 92

Maths   : 94

Science : 93

ERT      : 93 *I think, i forgot. ; - ; )

History: 88

Geography: 90

Yup, but.........o-o....... Would you ever believe someone getting less a mark than the full mark (eg. 39/40) in their essay? And someone getting 96 in their Literature subjects? ; - ; .... Please, never NOT-BELIEVE it. Someone that OVER-SUPER-POWER-OMIIGOSHIE does exist. In this big, big, big planet. Everything happens. And human wonders. 

Amazing.... ; - ;

Sorry for the poor scanlation~ ><

Sob sob~

HERE IS THE MASTERPIECE!!!

XDDD

Haha!!!

:3

I have great news to share with you. Our Teacher in charged for KK decided to reject Pn. Marie's request to stop being our GP. Though I shouldnt be happy, but crap I'm so happy. Sorry teacher, you might have another tiring year, but we promise not to trouble you so much from here on!!! o-o!!!!

That's the cancelling I mean for my news. XD

Okay, then it's for the title only. Now we should go off topic. Oh~ I was working on a new drawing, it was lovely when it turned out. I'm happy with the results but I'm still not satisfied with the out come piece, I need to improve more to be able to compete with those in DA. :3! I'll try my best to beat clap-san!!! Wakakaka~ (in my lovely dreams)

I still have a little touch up to finish with and when I'm done I shall post it up for you to it. And OMG, I'M SUPER HAPPY!!! My poster for my fiction is finally dooooooone! The Graphic Designers did it quite well. I cant post it up right here for it's sorta copy righted. But I'll try asking her for permission to share it with you. Though I'm hoping for a little more on the bombastic part, she made it peaceful, quiet and sorta creepy. It's simple but nice. XDDD

Thank you so much!!!

That's all for now. I'm waiting for my upcoming comic. I hope my friend is able to get it for me. I need it so much~ LOVE THAT MANGA LIKE HELL!!! God bless me and her too, for getting both our fave. mangas!

I'll update later maybe, with a new post. I'll see if I have anything to tell you. XD... 

Farewell, no matter what it is, nothing in this world lasts for an eternity. Things or people will never stay together, as long as they stay together, they will too be seperated. Of all reasons. 

I heard a very saddening news from my friends today. Pn. Marie decided to stop being our guru penasihat for Club Badminton. I'm not sure if she's just joking or if she's serious. I wasn's there when she announced the news to the others. I was shocked when I heard it, I thought we would have at least a few more years to have her as our wonderful teacher.

Suddenly getting on to the news, I felt hopeless. It's like without her there, it's no fun, and the things we did were all nothing. I know it is tiring for her to become the teacher in charge for so many years, but, I really want her to not leave us like that. I know it should be time for us to be independant, now it's all on our own. We have no one to rely on now, other than Pn. Marie, not on other teachers.

I've never met such a teacher like her before. She was generous with smiles, claps, compliments, and she has a very sweet smile and sweet talk. Not to mention, she is a very strong person with a very kind heart. I don't ever knew such a person exists until I met her. 

I used to dispise the activities,  but thanks to her, everything made a difference. I love this club so much, including the teacher, the members, Without Pn. Marie, it's as if the club's going to crumble very soon. I don't know what to do. I'm struck with horror all of a sudden. But it's time to pull myself together.

If she's really going to say farewell to us, this time's badminton farewell party, I want to make it into a wonderful party where people will remember them as a very special farewell. Not only to our form 5 seniors, but also to our beloved teacher in charge, Pn. Marie.

We need to let you know what you effort you've paid to make this club a success, and we thank you for your hard work. Thank you so much for everything, for giving us the comfortable air-cond bilik peperiksaan for us to deal with our works, for treating us to meals surprisingly, for treating us like your own children, and deviding your love among us equally. 

We felt everything from you, and thank you for it. Thank you so much, Pn. Marie. 

If you're to leave us, I think it's time for us to be on our own then, we'll make this farewell party into a big success where everyone will always remember what club badminton did for FAREWELL PARTY 2009. 

Our AJKs, I hope you'll all help us to make this into a WONDERFUL party.

With your cooperations, everything will come true. 

Imagine what we did today for half the day of the dammit school. == First it was the never ending assembly, though it was quite fun but my legs went dead. They off-ed themselves when I stood and I had to cling on to Fat Fish for support. Though fatty bum bum Pei today's stability is TOO GOOD to be true she didn't tripped. Good thing. Ha-ha. Try teasing me!!! Booboo~

Uuuuh, what we did at assembly? Let me dig out my brain to recall for a minute... Hmm, first it was... Oh, the HM coming in like a king. ==/// Then, I think it's a dance or something. Uuuh, I think I'll stop remembering. I only know it;s fun. Don't ask me more about it.

Then, we had a little meeting in Pn. Marie's room. About the farewells and such. Damn the clashing for the scout's farewell also. Though it's a mere coincidence, what should we do? == Fighting back means nothing. Geeee---oooh! Anyway, after that it was bored bored bored bored.. 

I CANT EVEN SLEEP IN MY CLASSROOM SINCE IT'S SO STUPID HOT!!!

In the ERT room, though, it was soooooooooo cool I had to keep myself from falling asleep - but I did anyway in the end. == So, nothing special today. We're sort of discussing about Wui Soh Lou's birthday party - and something about buying him a pantie or so. I think a red one should be fine - hou yi tao, Chinese ma. :3 Red Red Red!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, poor him didn't get to invite his looovelie babeh. Kesiannya. == Wish you good luck la huh, Wui soh Yung. 

Anyway, I saw that friggin guy after school. Not referring to you who is it. But people who knows me well would know. Blek~ Haiz, I need to knock him out of my mind before it's taken its roots - it has anyway, so now i need to pull the roots out. Ouch!

OKAY, GO GO WONG ZHEN WEN!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! WHOOO!

==

I LOOOOOOOOOVE THIS BLOOOOOG!!! AHAHAHA!!! I'M ADDICTED!

Which is not a good thing........... o-o

I'm feeling a little unwell lately. Sometimes on my back, sometimes my head, sometimes my arms, sometimes my tummie. == It feels ALL BAD. When the hell can i get rid of this bad bad bad feeling. Ugh. My tummie is making fun of me now. Get lost that damn thing. Anyway, since I didn't go to school that much I can't tell you anything special on it. ><

I can only tell you today I went to school in a heavy down pour which caused me to be turned from a freshly bathed happy mood down to a bad, angry mood when I reached school. Not to mention I was all wet and damn a dog was chasing after me during my walk to the school. 

Now what, blame God, blame the weather, blame the rain. Anyway, choir competition goes very very very UNWELL. I guess that makes it a bye bye champion game. :x... Anyway I wasnt intending on getting my hands on the champion any way, and the singing sucks loads with some ammatuer in the group. == Dear Lord. *Cross*

The meeting for Badminton Club went,.... went by? I guessed that's all i can say about it. Since it wasnt fun or wasnt boring either - well at least at the last part. Maybe. No idea. I think I would rather prefer dinner and dance though, if it was only ONLY dinner it'll go really boring. Spell it out for you? B-O-R-I-N-G! BORING!

:3

So now, I'm going to go see my doctor*food* to heal my tummie. But that didnt work since I ate watermelons and they're still grumpy. Gee. Ugggggggh, my tummiiiiiiiiie~

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I SUCK SO MUCH AT BEING A FRIEND!

WHAT POINT AM I TO CONTINUE BEING NEAR SOMEONE!

GUILT IS HAUNTING ME. I SUCK SO MUCH!!! UGH!

How's school, you asked. Well, how should i put this? Anyhow, I'll put it in one word - FUN. Ha.Ha. Come on, laugh with me. Don't get too cold over nothing. Actually it wasn't fun at all, though we've got great bunch of gangs in the class but everyone's so busy with their own things and Wriggly plus the other gand were talking so Jelly with me, decided to die peacefully at the golok tao of the class. Seriously, I don't think she would die with me, I think I would die first if she sees this. o-o

Something special about yesterday was a super-damn-bloody-hell-long-assembly-which-pisses-me-off so much when I stand up I couldnt even get to my pace. Not to say Wriggly who stood nearly trippled over on a flat surface, thank God her elephant legs have enough base area to keep her stability. Ahaha~ There's some performace made me laughed the hell out of my lungs, imagine them exploding with air and contracting again~ <3

There's this performance for the Pemansyuran of Kemerdekaan Tanah Melayu, something like that. We've got Tunku Abdul Rahman, Tun H.S. Lee, and Dr. Thuraisingam if I've not mistaken. :3 The funny part was when one of our student introduced himself as the P.M. Oh God, the whole school was laughing so hard. 

And then also a performace min lead by Pn. Shahrul - I think her name's spelled like that. Two foreigners visiting Malaysia and she began introducing our country to them. Through the songs, she'd managed to get some scenes out from the lyrics. I'd say it was wonderful. 

In the class though, was a bunch of rotting fungus. Including me, but exclude the ones laughing their ass off behind me. :3 

Anyway, I don't understand why I'm such a life noober. == 

Wriggly just told me that and I realized I'm so lacking of Common Sense. As said by JiaJin's word, C.S. Funny. == .... So how do I increase my CS? Uuuuh........ No idea. What do I do? o-o

OMG. I'm so going to die once I get out of this society. God Help me. 

Okay, seriously, I'm going crazy. Ahaha, you see these brain-washing Japanese comics like Maid Sama, VK, and also that damn freaking cursing but hella good read Korean complicity of Goong. ==

Anyway, anyone not interested in Japanese mangas and animes please don't ever read this as you'll never get what i want to articulate. :3 Since you're not so obssesed with them like me. And I'm half otaku since I LOOOVE staying at home - but cut out my tuition, I looove going English tuition. And only that. ><

I've been too obsessed with Maid sama lately, something about a school president taking a part time as a maid in a maid cafe. Crap, it's not only that, there's also this damn damn damn handsome guy as the MC. T_T And thanks to him, in that manga, I'm feeling as much to want someone like him to live on this impossible planet. >< 

I want a boyfriend like him~ <3...

Why is he so freaking handsome and perfect for God's sake? == Okay, he (Usui) jumped down from the building just to get something for the girl president, named Misaki. And participated in an audition for Misaki and even jumped down from a stage so high that he broke his leg and arms. And he's a good cook and makes delicious desserts - just what I need. And also damn damn damn damn sweeeeeeeeet~<3

ARGH, IT'S BRAIN WASHING ME!!! THERE'LL BE NO WAY FOR SOMEONE LIKE HIM IN THIS PLANET!!!! UNLESS EVERYONE DIED DOWN AND THE WORLD COMES AGAIN IN A NEW LIFE FORM!!!!

==

Frankly speaking, do ignore me since I'm going half crazy due to the brain wash of Maid Sama. And don't worry, it's a comic with no adult contents, only freshly picked high school romance. Fujiwara senseii's art is clean, and nice, though not incompatible with Hino Masturi senseii's more detailed art, the story line and the well potrait characters made me fall deeper and deeper into the story. 

I need to know one thing - WHY THE HELL ARENT THIS MANGA FINISHED? I'M GOING CRAZP ANTICIPATING FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER!!!

Vampire Knight too!!! Matsuri sensei why don't you keep your pace faster and let Zero meet Yuki already!!! And of course give them another kiss scnene - you gave them ONCE only and it's sooooooo short!!! ><>

Anyone with the same term with me of the idea? :3 Need a longer kiss scene for Zero and Yuki ==~~~<3>

Maybe later afternoon? :3... Hmm, seems not like a bad idea. I shall think about it. 

AWWWWWWW, I NEED A BOYFRIEND LIKE USUI AND ZERO!!!

OR HYUN JOONG!!! I'm not going to mention JaeJoong anymore as i find him a little over-doing stuffs lately. Though I'm still very in love with his voice, and he's gentleness, but sometimes he's taking too much spot lights on him. And surprisingly, DBSK's rumoured to break up doesnt make me as sad as I imagined, but still I don't want them to break up in such circumstances. They are a wonderful theme! And i swore to myself I would not die until i meet them in my life!!!!

Hey, I went off topic again. ==/// 

Maybe I should tell you about my shcool life? Here I go with a new post in school!

I don't understand why the heck YOU.NO.2 - Short form as YN2 LIKES TO BOSS ME AROUND FOR MY EMOTION AND MIND AND MY LIFE!

It's miserable enough to see your friggin sulking face everyday and just for cheering you up was hard enough. Man, and what do you say to me? I don't care a damn for your very precious someone's death? HELL! How do you ever know HOW i feel deep down when you're away from me for friggin 3 days! How do you friggin know I NEVER CRIED? ==

If you have no idea on what i prayed for her, then you'd better keep your effing mouth shut and keep yourself away from me. I can't say this in your face but I want to tell you I HATE YOUR MANIPULATION ON ME!

It's my life, I'M THE CEO OF WONG ZHEN WEN SDN.BERHARD! What rights do you have to make decision on my emotion? I'm on my own! 

Don't you ever tell me how to feel when I'm just trying my best to live my life to my fullest. Don't you know time is moving and you can't keep  on feeling sad for someone who'd left? 

Crap! I'M GOING TO FRIGGIN KNOCK IT INTO YOUR HEAD IF I HAVE THE CHANCE!

MAN, IF YOU CONTINUE TO DO THIS TO ME! I'LL NEVER RETURN TO YOU AGAIN WHEN I'M ALL GROWN BY MYSELF! WHO CARES ABOUT YOUR BOSSINESS? 

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Okay, seriously, if she sees this, I'm dead meat. ==.....

But everyone have a limit in endurance, you better don't think you're the boss forever. You're NOT!

Now. now, regarding Wriggly's new post about my passed away grandmother. How should I put this?

It's not like I don't care a damn whether she's dead or alive, but I have a soft spot for her in some ways. Her death didn't shake me that much than I'd imagined, but that didn't mean I don't feel a thing at all. 

Yesterday was a day of extreme exhaustion, thus resulting my mood seemed to be Swinging more than usual. I had rests, I woke up, and I reminded myself - Grandma is dead. I felt nothing at first, but I recalled the moments where I would be seeing and greeting her everytime whenever I arrived at Perak. That's the first thing I'd always do. 

I suddenly missed her croaked sounding voice and her loud complaints about her pains and life. I missed the sounds of her odd chuckle, her crooked smile that would reveal some of her still-there teeth, her shuddering shoulders whenever she was talking. I missed every bit of it.

Whenever I think of, would I still be able to see her next year CNY ?

To see her around winning every bets in poker cards and everyone sighing and giving her their money and she would smile and laugh like she'd just won lottery? 

I don't have much memory of her, but, I think it was a well lived life, some how. Inspite all her grumpiness, her complaints, she was strong willed. 

She had managed to live out more than a month than her originally planned life, she had fought her death by not giving up on hope and waking up every morning relieving my relatives, she had gotten so well over the month. I thought she would live for a whole year more, I thought she would still be there when I return to Perak on CNY next year, and for the coming years. 

I felt nothing at first, really. But all the rememberings made me so sad. I didn't cry for her, I wasn't there, there weren't emotions flooding me. But I felt the immediate urge to pray for her. I stood in my room and prayed for her. I remembered I told her in my prayers:

You were a wonderful person. So strong, so cow. Your life is never meaningless. I wonder if I would have fought like you to God, you were critical and you were dying the last time I saw you, but you lived for a whole month later. And you disappeared so soon. Whenever I think of you on your bed, eyes closed and never waking up, I felt somehow upset that I couldn't see you off for the last time. I have boundaries, I'm sorry. Even though I never felt for it, but for this very first time, until we lost you to your maker, I knew one thing. 

It wasn't a deep feeling. But for being to be able to know you, and once have you around was fun when I was young. Now that I recalled, you played with me inspite you were sick. You insisted on making me snacks when I told you it's fine. You smiled whenever you see me. You don't recognized me in the very end of your life, but it's fine. 

I just want to tell you. I'm glad you're finally freed from pain and suffer, I hope you'll meet grandpa over there. Rest well. Please don't worry about us. We'll be fine. I love you, and bye bye. Please don't worry any more and rest well. 

Okay, I cried writing this post. I don't know if it's of exhaustion or sadness. 

That's my prayer for my grandmother. But in Cantonese. 

I told my mom when she was heard the news, 

"Find comfort in knowing you were a special part in a well-lived life. Memories are forever locked in your hearts. Death doesn't mean perishing."

Through SMS. Of course.

Yes, to those who have lost your family, friends or relatives. I need you to know, that life is short, fast, and sometimes surprisingly to go vanishing all of a sudden. I think I told you before, that a life is at its mean not for its period but for how we lived it. I need you to cherish who you loved and everything around you right now before you lose them and start regretting. 

My only regret was not to see my grandmother off for her last trip. Please forgive me for my absence. Until now, nothing has been moving me due to her death, but whenever i think about her, i feel somehow upset. I was glad I wasn't that close to her, selfishly, or else I wouldn't be taking my trial and I would be crying all day long for her death. I had that experience, and it wasn't a nice one. I hate crying over the loss of someone, I somehow felt I want them to be by my side forever. So, I was often shocked to hear someone passing away that suddenly. I can't count the number of loss around me this year. Not only the descendants, but also living people who had left my life. 

Grandma, still, even though it was never strong and maybe it was not deep enough to reach you. Maybe it wasnt real from my heart or so, but I really want to tell you I love you. You have to know everyone loves you in Perak. Alright? 

Please take good care of her, dear Lord. Rest in peace. 

 I won't lock you up in my memories, I'll remember you as someone who was really happy, who loved gambling, who loved to complain, who loved my baby brother, who were so sick but still throwing a tantrum. And Oh dear, what a bad grandchildren I am. Shame to say I don't know my grandmother's name, I'd never bothered to ask at all. What kind of a human I am? 

I SUCK LOADS. I KNOW. I SUCK! GO TO HELL DAMN ALIEN(ME)!

 I can't say more about it than being mistreated due to discrimination. But let's all first ignore that shall we? Let's get on the good point on being a Malaysian for I've just had so many realization over the past few hours doing nothing but day dreaming about facts being a Malaysian. Shall we then? 

You see, we have different cultures, which results in alternating choices of food, clothes and even holidays! Instead of being in an only ME-AN-ONLY-ME races like the Western countries, I feel happy about having different races for examples like Indians, Malays, Chinese, Ibans, Muruts, Dayaks, and more? :3 Do you ever know that we, Malaysians are praised to be able to live in harmonisation inspite the fact that we have so many races in a country? Sharing the same air, the earth, the same room, we don't argue and we live as if it's normal. 

Even though we do, sometimes, narrow our eyes at different races and points out their bad points and such. But don't you ever realize that it's so amazing that you can just smile and say sorry when you bump into someone other than your race instead of pointing a middle finger at them and mouth the Heavenly- F - word to them like some of the people living in the West? I'd not say everyone of them, some of them are really nice people, but some are not. So the people I am referring to those with Mid-s and F-s are the Not-ones. 

I saw an advertisement on TV and that made me feel so proud being a Malaysian. And probably you're laughing your ass off because of me saying I'm proud. But I'm persisting on itself, I'm really proud. Seriously. I recalled about how our old leaders had fought for our independence, I remembered them from the history and wondered how  they cooperated so well to give birth to the formation of Malaysia.

And our culture is so rich, and what land resources do we own?  So much, so much, it's hard to find in well developed countries where trees are palnted everywhere. I might have said Japan was my dream land, and I wished to go to Korea, but I'm still happy to stay here. I might want to live in Canada, or other places, but i know it won't take me long to come back to Malaysia. 

If you throw away other thoughts of mistreats and discrimination, Malaysia is a rather nice country, based on its food, culture, places, and people. Yes, people. Don't i even tell you i have a wonderful cousin who's a Kadazan? :3... Maybe not. But now you know. I miss them both who're now in somewhere in the 'golok tao' on Earth, but I;m sure they'll be back for CNY. ^^

Until then, I shall update my blog more often. To share with you a part of my school life? I'm much not to keen on sharing with you my school life but instead of opinions on how i see things, observe and analyse and then express them out of words. I love it whenever inspiration comes to me even though it was inspired by a teeny thing. :3

Maybe i will be writing about bugs next time, who knows? 

BUT NOT SPIDERS. ==

Anyway, congratulating JiaPei on her wonderful performance of her piano exam. I'm proud with you, and I'm glad your hard work pays off. I'm so glad my message brought you good luck and encouraged you, and i was even proud to the fact it wasn't a mere message but one that brings you such confidence. 

And also your month of friend, I said i was glad because you were finally normal again. Who wouldnt be worried if it stopped coming for half a year - your case. Dear Lord, you should consider on seeing a doctor for medical comments. You get it?

Anyway, I'm in a process of letting someone go. It's not like he belongs to me, but I have this clear image he will never look at me. So would it be best for me to put him down? Though something tugs on my heart string, but i know it would be best for me to put it down. But this questions me, how? ==  I should just try my best.

But I know i might break my promise to you. :3

Cause if you want me to put someone down, it means exactly to cut off any relations with him - which would be impossible and means exactly for me to look at another guy. Which would be hard for now, there's no one like the target.

My life's a bullshit of events, but a bunch of great friends often relieves me. Especially Jia Pei Baby, i seriously need to thank her for bringing so much joy and colour in my life and no this is not a confession. I'm so really glad I've managed to meet someone like you. Everyone must have friends, of course, but it's hardly for anyone to find their true friend in their short, brief life like a candle - Shakespear. Haha. 

Thank you for being a chapter of my life, and i take great honour to have you as my friend. I can't imagine how i would have lived, maybe still leading a hollow, despisable and boring life with no friends caring what shit i do. Inspite my carelessness, my bluntsness, my selfishness and everything stupid I do, you have endured so much and have understood what means and why i would have done something stupid like those I've done so much.

Thank you for everything! :3

Life is OneShot, I know I'll live it to my fullest as long as I have you as my friend. Let's try our hardest for everything and to keep this friendship long termed and well polished. 

And to all my other friends as well, like Jelly who have been wonderfully supportive over the years and worrying my health like my mom, Handkerchief Zhong who had accompanied me with my craziness and stupidity, Fat Fish who had been the only one in the gang along with me supporting DBSK and having endless of bombastix 4th dimenstion outbursts.  And also two other people who had left the gang due to specific reasons.

You two, too, had also bring joy and liveliness into my life.

I would never forget how we'd laughed, played, joked, and even argued for something stupid. There might be a crack within the friendship, but I still hope we remain friends forever. 

MY NEW MOTIVE OF LIFE:

go to hell as soon as possible ------------------ NAH!

I WANT TO BEAT JIA PEI'S BOSSOM!!! (Beats me - I'd rather die!)

Okay, okay, time to go serious.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY AS LONG AS I LIVE!!!

THOUGH SORROW WOULD FIND ITS WAY TO ME BUT I'LL TRY MY BEST TO SHOO THE DAMN BLOODY HELL THING AWAY!!!

But seriously. Only you do have sadness, you would have more happiness to share. :)

See you then!

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