*COLOUR-FLYING RESULTS
< *Get married to HyunJoong or JaeJoong?8D
*Become a wonderful watercolour painter
*Finishes all my fiction and get a blast of comments from them!
*Forever Friends with my 38 Gang~ <3
*Forever eat food that is cooked by my dad~ <3
*Eat, sleep and do nothing?

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I WAS STRUCK BY SUDDEN DEPRESSION YESTERDAY!!!

Although it was all a pass tense now, it still haunted me for the sudden out burst. I'm trying to figure out - No periods don't make me cry, I think I'm having slight depression. Those disease where it would lead you to ending your own life due heavy depression. 

But, if I try to look up upon it, with a smile and a laugh and all. It's as if everything suddenly felt better. So it's not depression either.

Maybe just STRESS? O-Oll

But seriously speaking, I don't feel at all stressed when I'm studying. It feels freaking relaxing and all i want to do after studying is sleep, sleep and sleep. And thus resulting in a heavy head - my conclusion on my sudden fever too because of too much napping. ==

Anyway. The month's bestie is visiting me. And I'm bleeding like hell - LIKE UEEEEEEEEEW! MY GOD! Why the hell am I telling you this anyway. But I'm praying here that You ain't eating when you're reading this paragraph. Like Gee, it's like really a real splatter or blood and to keep the repeating and repeating hygiene i need to change it 2 hours once. == Sanitary pads arent that cheap, you know. We're having a finance tsunami. Bull shit.

Anyway, studies been going quite well, i guess? ==" 

I still have Science, Maths, Geography Form 1, and Sej Form 3 one unit.

:3

How's that? Kekeke~

Anyway, I wanted to share with you my drawings! :3

WOuld it be best for you to visit the website instead of me psoting it up?

Or it would be BEST to visit me and asked me to take it out for you to see.

:3

Here's deviantart!

http://coloured-hands.deviantart.com/gallery/

:3

My baby Wriggly Low just updated her new bloggie, kekeke~ Something about she's a very lucky girl and I'm relieved she finally REALIZED THAT! I've been telling her all over again to cherish what she have and all i get is a "Man, you're long air." Okay, Bazooka her. == .... And now she's finally hitting it into her head with a hammer and a nail!!! o-o!!!

However, I have to agree with the point, "If God closed the door, he will leave a window for you." Seems familiar, I wonder where you quoted that. Credit it you dumbass!!! o-o!! And yes, pain is a period of time like she said. Some times you feel that your life's a black hole, where everything good disappears around you and you go "DAMN! I HATE THIS LIFE!" But well, to think of another way, that's only a phrase of your life where you'd suffer, how would you know what lies ahead of you? 

As they say, a rainbow always come after the storm. I love this quote a lot.

Also i found that there's a lot of people being taken away from us this year, Wriggly, your grandmother, (I feel extremely sorry for your loss, but find comfort in knowing that you're a special part in a well-lived life. :D), Michael Jackson (A huge loss for the whole world, May you rest in peace), Ming Fu (I hope the police will return you peace and name, and also solve the case of your complicated death, Rest in peace as well.), and so loads of people. I can't remember the name but these are the people i can name out.

Some times we wonder, why are lives taken away from us? It's hard to understand why, but you do know when your maker wants you home, you have to return to Him no matter what. Unless He had given mercy on your for what we called a MIRACLE. Or else there would be no other choices but to leave our loved ones behind.

Yet, a life's value is not for how long it had lasted, but for how we lived it.

A meaningful life is lived with love, smiles, sorrows, complications, success, and many more things. If it is a life with a straight road lying ahead of you, only waiting for you to step on it, what more would it mean?

Every life has its twist and turns, up and downs, and that's what makes it a valuable life. :)

And always know that memories will NEVER be gone and they will be forever kept in your heart. Right? They won't die. Memory lasts for eternity. It is not for sorrowfulness, not for angst, but for the sweet moments that you've spent with them. :) Whenever you find yourself thinking about it, you'll smile instead of breaking into hysterics. That's what make us, humans wonderful. Because we share feelings, and thoughts together.

Even though I'm upset with what we've done to Earth, but I'm still proud to be human - some times, when I feel the people around me considering me as a wonderful person, or when I laugh and fool around with them. It's good to be living.

Life is one shot.

LIVE IT TO YOUR FULLEST! 

DON'T LEAVE ANY REGRETS TO YOURSELF! :) 

DO ANYTHING CRAZY ON EARTH THAT YOU WOULD NOT EXPECT YOURSELF BE DOING, DON'T TAKE ON WITH THE DIGNITY, GO FOR IT!

I LOVE MY SELF! I LOVE MY FRIENDS! I LOVE MY FAMILY! I LOVE MOTHER EARTH! I LOVE EVERYTHING AROUND ME ---------------------

Except spiders. *shudders*

From a documentary that i have watched just now, i came to realize how much harm have i done to Mother Earth and how horrible it is. All of a sudden i felt as if i should not be human but i should be a plant instead, -the blurness of mine suit it best-, but that's not the point.

Instead of thinking about being a plant and helping out with air-renewing like an air cond, i think what i should do is to help save mother earth. Maybe it's like the heat of a pizza for my sudden passion, but i felt the need to do something. 

So right now, my new dream is to aim foran ecologist. 

I'd think about being a doctor - but not of my own interest but because they are well paid. I found it's not really my ideal job for my first choice was a vet. Now that I'd found something I'd be interested in,  Ecology studying.

I'll need a biology degree - well i did some brief research on ecologist.

But only with the degree means a shit for nothing, so i still need the passion and heart to help earth, and to cope around with plants, animals, and weather. Weather might be a problem to me, but not with the living things. I looove nature, I told you about that didn't I?

I don't want it to be all dark for my next generation, I want it to be still the blue, blue sky and where clouds will fly. :) I want it that way. Really.

Though my effort might not help at all, but I'll try my best to be at my best.

I want to save Mother Earth, and please, if you're my close friends reading this such as Wriggly, please don't laugh. I'm serious.

The documentary made me revised again why the hell am i human but not a plant? 

And there's one quote in the documentary:

All living things had learned to cope with the others, and for all those years - millions of years, they'd caused no harm to the planet. Until, the story of human began.

That's scary. Really.

So I'm thinking on lending a hand.

And that's for me to become an ecologist.

I may not have the long erm passion for it, but i hope it will last.Finally something came to me and for the first time, i felt bad to be selfish. I want to give than receive.

And if I have the chance, I'll fly around the world and help Earth.

I'll go to India, and give speeches, and I'll donate my passion and money in what i can help. I'll go to Africa, and I'll get myself a degree in saving people - Maybe I'll still be a doctor - and an ecologist the same time. I want to save people.

And what i want most is I want to save Earth.

I can't bear to witness any more harm to it anymore.

And form now what i can do is to CURSE THE DAMN EFFIN FACTORIES TO STOP PUTTING YOUR ASSHOLE RUBBISH INTO OUR RIVER AND SEAS AND WHATEVER IT IS RELATED TO OCEANS!

YOU EFFERS HAVE NEVER THINK ABOUT KILLING THOSE INNOCENT FISHES? NO? GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK, GO HOME AND THINK WHAT YOU'VE DONE WRONG!

TRY HELPING THE EARTH!!!

== GEE!

AND ALSO WHY THE HELL ARENT THE GOVERNMENT DOING ANYTHING TO ENCOURAGE THE 3R!

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COME ON, MALAYSIA! WE NEED TO DO SOMETHING!

WE'LL SOON GO INTO THE TROUBLES OF VALUING WATER AS IF IT'S A BILLION RINGGIT!

AND WHAT ABOUT THE TREES? STOP THE STUPID PERKEMBANGAN AND LET THEM FRIGGIN GROW!

I don't need anything more but i want you to leave the trees alone! I don't want to enjoy anymore comforts, and I swear to God, YOU DON'T HAVE TO CUT DOWN SO MANY TREES BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID PERKEMBANGAN FOR IT'S NEVER HELLA WORKING!

Try to think of something else now instead of getting power over something, wake up and come to cherish what's around you before you lose it forever!!!

-And yes i know maybe some of you are laughing at me for being so... Whatever. I don't care a damn. I want to be an ecologist.

And the old theme again - SAVE MOTHER EARTH-

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A little confused lately, it's only trail. It's nothing to be worried about. Sometimes thinking about it over and over again makes me hard to sleep and i'm getting more imsoniac. Bull shit, i'll say. 

But well, still, it's just trial. 

I'm trying to convince myself on that. But you know it never really happened.

And a response to Wriggly low's comunication trouble with me, yeah, i think i have a problem with my brain and mood too. I'm sorta mood swinging here and there lately. A little thing can just friggin raise up my anger. 

I'm sincerely saying sorry for shouting at you at class today. Sorry~

I didn't quite mean what i say as you know i can just blurt out anything stupid because of anger without thinking. Please accept this apology. 

I'm so sorry. 

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I suck, i know. I'm such a sucker i dont think i'm good enough to be your friend. But i'll try my very best to put back the good pieces together so our friendship won't be spoilt. 

So sorry, dear...

Today me, and my 3B kingdom alieness went to contaminate Wriggly Finger's house. At first we decided to study ---- *cough* Geography and History and OUR TARGET IS TO FINISH ALL THE FORM 3 SUBJECT!!!!

But as you see, .... We're writing blog here~ *takes a sip of my 100 +*
*clears throat* We only studied.... 1 and a half hours and NOW WE'RE HERE!!!
Okies, so that wriggly low just finished blogging. Something about emotional posts about 'someone', so i took the job as her typewriter in the first few paragraphs. And guess how it turn out to be? A big contrary of english standard of course~ Kekekekeke~ HAHAHA~

Now she's si be du lan.... Kekekeke~

OKIES BRB TO EDIT. O-O

Need to get some things done. I'm fucking scared to hell because she's gonna kill me~~~ ><

To one of my friend who's been thinking about her problems lately.

Vaguely bringing out the topic, though. It is not meant to be a harsh fight back but to be something good in return of your consideration. At least you still had thoughts about our once treasured friendship.

You had posted a lot of posts regarding the matters i can see, i'm not blind or that blur until the possibility of missing out those clues. Although we might some how mistaken your worries as some hints on the problem, but. Well. A pause. i dont know how to continue. 

Anyway, you don't have to worry any more. I can see that you arent really that engaged in the conversation or the friendship you have now, but i still wish you all the best and all. You never know what lies ahead of you until you can clear the fog called dilemma and all the other problems that might occur to you in this road of life that has its twist and turns. You never know that you might be friends again with her - you know who i mean.

Never stop believeing. Believe in something that is impossible is a good chance of chasing afer your dreams but never let negative feelings to fill you and make you stop in your tracks towards your wish. You've start talking with us, but what about her? Try speaking normally with her, even though you're not the bestest babies you can still be friends, right? Why the face and unplesantness? 

Try smiling and saying a hello.

You never know what will change with a hello.

Even the other girl had become friends again with us, even with her.

What about you? Would you want to have a difference in your friendship with her? Is it all that costs and worth for those memories we shared?  Because of a stupid reason of jealousness? Bring the feeling as something to not make you hate or dislike but come to a conclusion that it is going to bring you some where higher and better. Alright?

Smile and say hello. She'll smile back. And that's when you know how wonderful it is to have once be friend with this girl, even though now you're not besties. But it's still great to know that there's someone like her around in the world.

:3

Good day, folks.

And i know there's no points in my drafts. But well, you know.

I suck in blogging. 0^0

It's been a long while. :D

Well, many had occured in my life after some time. Thing have been cleared out, complications made easier, friendship bond stronger, and we lost one huge star. Dear God.

I've been much to my own problems that i was abandoning this lovely, lovely blog - sorry darling, mummy hugs back now. *huggies*

Anyway, it hasnt been a good while for me. Let's have a little playback of what happened then. About a week ago, when i was excited about the coming canteen day and so. My face went black and dark after getting the news of my dying grandmother, in which in return of all her grandchildren and children, she has managed to live until now. :D Good news.

But i missed the Canteen Day and the surprise party for my teacher, Madame Marie. Maybe missing this event might bring a huge loss of fun and memory to me, but there might be still something like this coming in my on-going teenage-hood. :D But still i couldnt hide my disappointment of my absence during that day. Well. 

And well then, I managed to do a few paintings there to pass time. :D

This is a painting called Blooming Voices. :D

I did it with 2 days, i think? D:

Quite a lot of work to add up with. But i'm happy with the result.

Okay, now.... I still have 2 more paintings but i'm such a laze to put it up.

Maybe next time? And here by, i also express my sorrow towards the death of a huge star, Michael Jackson. His contribution to the entertainment world is a wonderful, wonderful thing. Although he was troubled by his private life's rumours and stress from medias / gossips, I believe he himself would have know it best that what's true. It's such a loss for the society, please, do rest in peace. When you're finally up there with God, you will not feel lonely anymore, Michael. Smile, and rest.

:)

That's all for now.

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